Twas the night b/f Christmas....

as I tuck my 11 yr old daughter into bed, I go in to discover her a little teary eyed and I asked her what's the matter....
She said, "mom- I want to believe in Santa- I really do but I think I'm just too old." She then asked, "would you tell me and don't lie to me?" Well- hello?!!? I have to admit this talk was harder than the SEX talk! Don't ask me why... maybe it's b/c it would finally make it official that she really is growing up. I sit there and chat on and ask her why does it matter if I tell her there really isn't a Santa Clause... she kept saying that it just doesn't make sense- b/c reindeer don't fly and she said that she just can't believe that one. She continues to cry and I ask her would it make her Christmas any different if I told her there wasn't no Santa Clause... and she said no that Christmas is a time to share and be thankful and that's how she wanted to look at Christmas......... so then of course I had no choice but to to be honest since she did ask me not to lie. She got a kick out of the stories I shared as she asked how we pulled it off every year we spent Christmas many miles away from our own home. She grabbed my neck and squeezed me tight and said "mom- you're the best- thank you and I do love you." I just held her tighter and cried as she continued to cry... only this time- the tears were tears of joy. She felt relieved. She even admitted that she could finally fall asleep better the night b/f Christmas. I had to of course ask her not to ruin this for her brother or anyone else out there... and I honestly believe she knows better. I had to share this moment b/c for one-I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER NOW and two- it was the sweetest moment spent with her! That's how I felt when I had the SEX talk with her. Now some of you may laugh at this and think why do you still pretend to be Santa... or why even do it in the first place- well it's just the way I was brought up and it's fun. The joy on their face on Christmas morning.. the preperation the night b/f with the letter, milk, cookies, and carrots makes them happy... they'll one day do the same with their children and understand the joy it brings to a mom and dad.
.. now I must sign off and start wrapping away...Merry Christmas to all and to all a Goodnight!!!!